MOVED.

www.shanghaiknights-xx.blogspot.com

xanga was fun, but i've outgrown it.

MEHHH what a dying blog =( i bet no one reads this now, and im probably just blogging to myself but maybe its a form of therapy (?!) that you express your thoughts in words and BLAHHHH..........you get the picture.

aaaaanyway.

i'm back in msia, been back for about 2 weeks i'd say? been so anti social these past few visits. ppl are like, ehh shing free this weekend ah? and im like .....no i have loads of revision. WTF lol. i'm gonna lose all my friends and no one will know =( hahahaha but yeahh today is sunday...I like Sundays lol. today was a typical family day for me. woke up and had tuition in the morning SCREW THAT haha and then my dad came back from melaka and he was like where dyou guys want to go for lunch and we decided to go to Subway at centrepoint. talk about class lol. after that my mum and i went to KLCC to shop and i bought....quite a lot of stuff. i must have spent more than 400 bucks in that damn place teehee  but it was good stuff i say. i bought:

-a skort from Nike. because i need one as hot summer days await for me back in the UK, and because i actually needed it. desperately.

-jeans from Gap. i usually buy my denims from Levi's, but i thought i'd try something different this time =) they aren't that bad and i do actually need a new pair as my old ones have GROWN BIGGER for some reason. wtf AM I SHRINKING OR WHAT

-stationary from Kinokaniyo or whatever the hell its called. intellectual question: is it stationAry or stationEry? o.O HEEELP but yeh im such a frrreeaak. ppl lke to look at clothes, shoes etc and i would happily spend 2 hours wandering around the stationary section in that Kino bookstore. im serious. those little Japanese things really fascinate me. hahahaha i know im weird!

-sorbet from some ice cream shop...but that doesn't count cos my dad bought it for me..actually none of the things i've listed count...cos my parents got it for me hahahaha i seriously dont know how im gonna manage my money when im out there working

uhhhhh what else? i think that's about it. oh and i have a new LOVER now. hahahaha he's SMEXY and i lurrrrrve him! guess who!

..........LOLAGE!

say HELLO to Cloud Strife, protagonist of the well-known movie that came out eons ago called Advent Children! hahahhaah yes i'm a slow one  but hey, its worth the wait!  godddd he's a freaking computer animation hahahaha but STILL. HOTNESS XD XD he beats Jay flat. though i have gone off Director Chou ages ago. lol. now i understand the true meaning of yong sui XXXXDDDDD

haha!! you better get my joke!! even though its rubbish lol

aaannnyyywayyy i watched the film on YouTube which was abit rubbish, cos i think youtube's put a limit on the amount of minutes youre allowed per vid or whatever, so the movie was split into 13 freaking parts. haha i know its not unusual but STILL. it kept cutting at really crucial moments and i'd be like ^$@#@!^% !!!! *loads other part* *waits for 10 minutes* *watches it until next crucial moment it cut*

out of desperation i downloaded BitComet from Bri's advice which took like 1 freaking gig on my comp...is that a lot?!?!! lol and i was halfway thru downloading the movie link that he sent me when i checked the properties on it and found out that it was dubbed. =.=""" I HATE DUBBED MOVIES THEY PISS THE HELL OUTTA MEEEE but yeahhh *fast forward* *cant be bothered to elaborate* and to cut the amazingly informative long story short, my dad's friend is burning it into a DVD for me and im getting it either by mon or tues. =) CANT WAIT!!!! hahahaha the funny part is i know NOTHING and i mean NOTHING about FFVII so when i watched Advent Children i was like o.O WHATS HAPPENING//// lol and i Wikipedia-ed it and i was happy and contented again =)

who wants another pic of an avatar that doesnt actually exist?? I DO lol.

TEEHEE XD only retards like me appreciate the extents of mordern technology TOO FAR lol.

aaaannnnyyywayyyy ive got LOADS more to say but........i cant be arsed to type it all out in a site that no one actually reads hahahaha

soooooo yeahhh going back to UK next sun....=(/=)?!??! HAPPY in some ways but SAD in others.

.........i was just browsing through my folders in my laptop and i came across some pics of when i was in form 2 =)

LOOK AT LEON XD XD

i would upload more recent photos of myself but im tired, its 2AM and ive GOT TUITION 2MOZ =( =( =( X10000 lol aaannndddd i just cant be BOTHERED lol so yeahhh stare at my luurrrvely face and imagine me with longer hair and a side fringe fastfowarding a good 3 years i think?? lolage

people may forget what you said to them,

people may forget what you did (no dirty thoughts! XD) to them,

but they will never forget,

how you made them feel.

OK so the last time i blogged was eons ago, but i thought i would update my xanga, even though no one is probably reading it anymore LOL but there you go. check out my new profile pic, my little sister looks like a total maniac! we took loads of pics, partly because i was bored out of my mind.

school is starting next thursday, and i'm leaving for UK next monday, which is the 27th Aug. mixed feelings about going. i want to go because it's good to go back and actually be doing something productive, instead of rotting away here at home, but i also dont want to go back because there's gonna be coursework, exams, mocks and all that. AHHHH~ i'm still in the same dorm with jackie and steph, i guess it's alright, no changes there. it was a good holiday though, if not very very VERY  uneventful XD i did see Joshua Bell in concert (yes, i'm still slightly crazy over him~!) and meet up with friends and attended a party, but besides that, it's basically what i do every holiday.

i usually spend holidays thinking, day dreaming, re-evaluating and going through things that have happened. i dont know why, but whenever i have time on my hands and i dont really have anything to do, that's what i do. all the time. i especially zone out listening to music on my iPod and thinking. is it a good thing?? lol maybe i'm just growing up, i dont know-

this past academic year has been a mediocre one for me, i've had my fair share of ups and definetely downs, but nothing drastic has happened (yet) now i'm in Year 11! WA~ time is passing reli quickly! before long, i'll be in sixth form! i remember back in Year 9 i always used to stop and dream away happily about all the prestiges of being a sixth former, but now i'm not so sure, because Year 10 was really an eye-opener to all the coursework and pressure that is in store for me. and i'm going for the Italy trip this summer!! i really hope that it'll be an enjoyable one, i wasn't reli looking forwards to the Berlin trip but it turned out to be good! ^.^ so putting my hopes relatively high for this coming one!

GCSE module exams are out, going to receive them when i get back. i'm not a very competitve person, and i dont particularly like competition. i think i've been doing reasonably well for the past 2 years i've been at Queen's, but obviously i need to do better.

haha.

i've just been reading through what i've written, and i've just realised that i've changed quite a bit over the last....2-3 years! i never used to be this serious or thorough, i used to be more happy-go-lucky and i had this don't-care attitude. yeaa~ i guess it's all about discovering who you are. i remember when i was 14 or15 and i thought i was reli big, but looking back i was reli young, and i understand my parents' concerns about my welfare. LOL i'm 16 now, but it doesn't feel and different. i still feel the same.

OK, this is one of the longest posts i've ever written on my xanga! it's sad that again, loads of people have left Queen's. i wonder what it's going to be like when it's my turn to graduate. the future is so exciting, you never know what's in store for you! i just hope that this coming academic year will be much better than my last one! (^.^)v

here's a little present before i leave~

BWAHAHAH. isn't he fit? dont ask me what's his name though, i know it's takashi or something like that. what a hottie! i like his outfit! *love love* *clings on to photo*

3 more bloody weeks till i can go home. it seems scarily near and yet frustratingly faraway. ahh well, i have my exams next week to keep me company. i've got my GCSE modules for math and all three sciences and i have this funny feeling that i'm going to be writing a whole truckful of bullshit on the papers.

let's see....what happened last week? oh yeah, i had DofE. it was well fun. let's quote Borat and put a NOT at the end of that statement. i climbed three bloody hills in two days. one was not-too-steep but very very very long. at least 3 miles. yes, imagine climbing up a three mile hill carrying a rucsac that weighs a ton. that was the first day. the 2nd day we had to climb a bitch of a hill. Bossington Bitch. that's what it's called. it's only 500 metres long but its so freaking steep. seriously. i nearly died doing that hill, and i'm sure alotta other people did. but you feel good at the end of it, a sense of achievement so i guess it kinda worth all that walking and hills.

woke up pretty early today so i have quite alot of time before breakfast so i decided to scuttle to the dayroom, on a comp and update my pathetic xanga. the last blog was probably last month or something. can't quite remember. but yeah, here i am, writing to the world.

ok am probably boring you so i'll sign off and i'll leave you with this little present to amuse yourselves with. ahah ok that sounded wrong but i can't be arsed to delete that.

mmmmmmmmmmm enjoy.

And so half term begins. was looking forwards to meeting ping  a certain fellow friend of mine when she just had to scuttle on a coach to somewhere halfway around the world. WELL DONE GENIUS lol. love you really.

been a shit term, shit week, shit everything. people being immature and petty again, sheep and followers galore. glad that i can getaway from it all and revise. or attempt to anyway. hate GCSE's. but yeah, shit is the word. shit man.

three sayings/quotes/whatever you call these things that kept me going :

what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

hah. how true is that. for once these phony things contain some truth in them.

what goes around, comes around.

yep, the good ol' karma. never used to believe it/take heed to it, but it's true. believe it, or go play in traffic.

and finally :

don't be sad that it's over, be glad that it happened.

to all the friends that have left Queen's last year, miss you all loads. i've lost alot this year, and it's hard to accept it and move on, but i'm in the process of doing just that. never a day passes and i don't think about you guys. it's hard to make a friend that you can totally rely and trust on. i've learnt that. so yeah, just a little i wanted to share with the meagre number of people viewing my xanga, just to help them get through whatever they're going through. have a good half term and to my malaysian friends, will see you guys on 7th july. important date! ~